Dreaming

I only dreamt of you twice
The first time you were backing away,
blocking me off
The second you were not letting me back in
Always refusing my touch
Always putting me out in the cold
So why do I think of you whenever I'm awake?
Why can't I stop imagining the stories we could have made?
I only dreamt of you twice
If you were to dream of me -
A silly supposition I suppose -
What would I be doing in your mind?
I hope if I dream of you one more time it might be the last
And this time as you let go of my hand
As you turn your back and choose your solitude
This time as my soul shows me that you will never be mine
I hope I will listen
I hope I will stop looking for the loophole
I hope I will catch myself and stop trying to catch you.